Tatkala...

Tatkala kau rasa awkward gila.
Okay, mungkin tak, maybe its just me and my paranoia.

Aku... sebenarnya takde nak cakap ape pun. Sebenarnya boring, sbb well, simply sebab aku boring. Its 4 am in the morning and I'm still not asleep. Simple as that.

Tapi agak2 kalau kau operate kepala aku ni, banyak gile menda serabut yang kau rasa time kau bukak tu kau nak tutup balik and never want to see em again.

Aku paranoid dgn dia. Sebab bila kau dah tersayang tersangat, you can't help but feel like this. Perhaps.
Orang len aku tataw lak canner. Dan bila scale itu berat sebelah, something unpleasant might happen. Mungkin.

Yang lain, well, banyak benda lain lagi ekshelli tapi tu mungkin lain hari lain masa lain ketika.

K dah, aku meraban ape pun akku tataw so baik aku tido.

Ta.

Insomnia

Ever had that particular moment bila kau rasa sedih gila tapi kau tak boleh nangis?

Rasa sakit aty kan? Yeah, tu la yang aku rasa skrg. Wai? Jap agy aku citer. maybe.

Kenapa aku takleh nangis you ask? Sebab aku taknak nangis, really. I mean, I'm not alone in the room. Mau si Yana dok terkkujat tgk aku tetiba nanges memalam. So tak nak la gempar aku histeria pulak kan. Haha.

Anyway, aku tgh ber cornflake  i mean, konflik (sorry aku tgh lapar) sikit. Dengan siapa? Aku rasa kau tawu kot. So paham2 jela.

Kena pulak dua2 tengah berangin. Memang tak la kan nak slow down ke ape. Seb bek dua2 reti bhasa. Letak phone b4 anything breaks out. Or as the Westeners call it, before hell breaks loose.

Well, hell didn't break loose. My tears did. Tapi tu la cam aku ckp, aku takleh nangis and frankly, aku tension. I need to let these pent up emotion out somehow.

That aside. aku insomniac hari ni. Like serious aku xleh tido. So aku sumbat telinga dgr lagu Adele, hopefully boleh tido. Or susah sangat all nighter je la kan. tapi memang tak la nak buat assignment kejadah kan. Kepala tgh serabut kot. Think I'll go watch anime or something. Alang2 wifi dah repair.

Anyway, esok kalau aku moody semacam, paham2 lah ~ jangan risau, aku moody sat je. Paling2 satu hari~

K dah, cukup membebel kot. Haha. Au revoir :)

A fortnight babysitter~

Yes yes, it's been a heck of a long time. Sorry.. been really........... lazy xD
aaannywayy, I ended my Foundation safely already and was accepted to UTM for my degree~ YAY xD

But today, the story is not that.

Its about me being a  babysitter.

Yep, a babysitter.

For approx 2 weeks.

And being someone who never really took care of kids, it's hella tiring, I tell you.

Alright, so I have a very cute niece. Scratch that, two cute nieces~ and they're staying over for 2 weeks till sis is out from her days of confinement.

So lemme introduce the lil cuties~

First and foremost: The elder sister, named Yasmin Farhana.

Alright~! Ni lah dye Yasmin Farhana. A very active one year old toddler, I got my hands full with her!

She tends to be quite cute tho, so sometimes I don't mind if I have to take care of her. She learns quickly, and her favorite things are Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, Boboi Boy's theme song, her small teddy that have been with her since she was born, and a green ball she likes to play with. A trick I learned to shut her up when she cries is to play ball with her. She'll still cry a bit, but she'll quiet down eventually ;) She had a loud voice, a trait inherited from her mum's side of the family, and she resembles her father a lot. (tho I say otherwise xD)

Right now she's sleeping, so I have some free time to surf the net. xD

Secondly, the little sister; Fatihah Maisara;

(ignore the caption lol)

This is taken when she was just a day old. A veeerryyy cute baby, and don't give much fuss, so she's a fairly easy baby to take care off. Then again, my job is more to Yasmin rather than Fatihah, cuz the latter is taken care by sis. She sleeps a lot, and only wakes up when she's hungry (then again, all babies do that, rite?).

Similarly like her sister, when she cries, she's capable of waking the whole house up lol xD

So yeah, my fortnight's schedule (starting from a few days ago) is tweaked a bit. I slept hella late, often after sahur, or else I won't wake up xD and wake up around 11 or 12 to mind the shop. Occasionally I'll be washing their milk bottles, putting them to sleep, playing with them till they're exhausted and pretty much what a normal babysitter do.

Hav to say tho, it's quite tiring to mind them when I'm fasting, but since I can't skip on both, I just go with it. And hey, I'm part of their family, so a bit of helping out is part of my responsibility anyway. So I'm good with it~

So that's it for today, I'm going to take a bit of a nap, to conserve some energy when the little bundle of hyperness wakes up to play. :P

YAY!An update! xD

Haha, yes yes I kniow,,, its been a long time since I've updated. Well, can't blame me, I got super super busy these days. Cuz, guess what? I'm now in my 4th week of college life~ hhehe~ Feels great to be a university student. To those who have read my previous entries, yup, I got accepted into UiTM Lendu, taking on Foundation of TESL. Everyday I learn English, English, and more English. Is it hard? Hmm, I'd say, 50/50 ;)

Anyway, life here in college is good in my point of view :) I got lots of new friends, got to know cool seniors, and learn to be independent~ ^^ Sure, I, like others, did not adapt as soon as I get here. There's always the time to adjust oneself to new surroundings~

I'm currently in my friends's room, not yet asleep despite having a class on 8.30 am tomorrow. haha. Ah well, things will work out, somehow. =P My little toe is also hurt, as I got a blister there. It hurts... :( but, I can still walk and stuff, so no big deal~^^

Well, I think that will be it for now. I REALLY got to go to sleep or else I won't wake up tomorrow. Hahaha.

Goodnight all. :)

First Interview

Right~ today is the 1st interview of ma life xD Okay, that was nerve wrecking... I mean, it's my first choice, my first interview and all... who wouldn't be nervous right? Anyway, I can't talk for much today, I gtg prepare myself for da interview. I woke up super early for it xD well, wush me luck~^^

Asasi TESL UiTM

Right. Keyword for today, I'm confused. I was sent a notification message from UiTM, that I was accepted for an interview for the TESL course there, at Shah Alam. So I tried to confirm the notif with the internet and guess what? the letter on the net said that the date for the interview is on the 16 th of April. That's like a long time ago. =.= but the SMS notif said that I were to go on the interview on 25 th of April. So, which one is true actually? I was ransacking the whole net to see whether there is a second call for the interview, and I'm still searching. Curse the me who forgot to check up on the TESL interviews.

But well, even if I don't get this one, I still got the maktab interview, though of course, it was my 2nd choice...I so badly wnant the TESL course, but if I were too late.... then, well... maybe it wasn't meant for me... ;.;

Okay enough rant. I'm off to go searching around the net once more. See ya! And wish me luck if I get to go to both of the interviews,kay? :)

Today....

Today, I opened up my long abandoned blog(lol), and re-read all my entries, simply cuz I'm bored... so, I came across my last entry, the one saying that I want to be independent. I am wondering whether I'll be able to do that... somehow, it seems far-fetched... but maybe I could, if given the right circumstances maybe... :)

Anyway, I don't really intend on making this a melancholic blog, but maybe its just part of my nature to be sort of melancholic, given my situation, and I just finished reading a sad story, so I guess its inevitable ;)~

I love the weather today,...it was raining... not only that its a perfect weather to sleep in, but also because it provides me a sense of calmness. A sense of state to just relax, and don't think about anything for a while. Of course, stuff like that are short-lived...it is gone as soon as it came. But I love rain, heavy ones, especially... I don't know why though, but it just seems enticing to me. It helps in calming down these seemingly chaotic mind, which is a nice feeling...

A random thought but, I was wondering why sometimes its hard for us to just talk to someone. Of course, that may have been because of a number of reasons, but still... the feeling of wanting to do something yet you can't... it's.... a bit annoying, isn't it? oh well... I guess its a thing that applies as the principle of 'to each their own'... :)

Well, that will be all from me, ttyl~ ^^